A New World of Challenge

It's been a long time since I last posted a blog here...

Here's again another story:

A rich old man so loved his daughter that he wanted it to marry a man who has the qualities he really like. He wanted a brave man to protect his daughter when he died. On his daughter's birth anniversary, he prepared a grand celebration. His daughter was happy. Along with all the decorations in the venue was a pair of alligator in the pool. He announced a challenged among all those men there. "He who can swim here, from this point to another point of this swimming pool can have the opportumity to have a million peso cash or marry my daughter." Without any signal while the rich old man was talking about his challenge, a guy suddenly jump on the pool and swam as fast as he could. He was amazed with the guy's bravery and congratulated the guy. "Wow! That's an incredible one! You are so courageous! Now, what do you want? A million or marry my daughter?" The guy angrily answered, "I don't want your money! I don't want your daughter! All I want is the one who pished me towards the pool!"

A reflecting thing about this matter is such a nice one. Who pushed me to run for Student Body Organization (SBO) presidency? I am the college publication chief editor yet I will enter politics? Then why? This will be a conflict of interest. I never had the thought to run for president but I saw the necessity. After a mounting encouragement I have received from my former teachers and other faculty members, here I am, taking my steps into another world -- from a world of student journalism, the school paper; from a world of sports after I found, organized, and led the college Sports Club; I am giving up all those posts to give way for this another world: leading the college studentry for a better change. Whether they like it or not, I have to demote myself from my other affiliations.

What pushed me? Some couple of weeks ago, some hearsays spread within the college department that I am running for this year's set of SBO officers. Wow! I never knew that I was going to run! Then it came to the period of applying for candidacy. That was the time when faculty members and a lot of students are convincing me to run, then I found out that none has the plan to run for SBO. What would happen without the SBO? Will the administration take over? Who will represent the studentry in the council? Who will voice their grievances? There is a possibility and democracy will be useless. I asked my publication's adviser after offering some options instead of resigning from my posts -- that I will be down while guiding whio will be the next in line...

That's it. I am taking a big leap again in my life.. A new world of journey for everybody's sake despite the pressures, struggles, problems, and hindrances I have been experiencing all throughout my life... I must be brave after all, tomorrow will be another day...

Just having these thoughts in mind...

I have had a harsh lesson with former Pioneer Editor-in-Chief Marie Joy Domingo! What a day! Pumunta kami sa Municipal Information Office to inquire some details at magtanong na rin ng kung saan makakakuha ng relevant info sa ilang articles. Ayun, ibinato kami kung saan-saan, sa PEZO na ibinato naman kami sa Administrative Officer na nag-entertain sa’min at nagbigay ng details hanggang sa napakwento na rin at ibinigay kami kay Ate Joy. Wla namn kami purpose mag-interview, just to query lang naman sana pero pagdating kay Ate Joy, kahiya! Hehehe. Naging labas tuloy eh ambush interview na hindi naman dapat. Anyway that’s just a lesson again… Ganyan talaga ang buhay… parang life.

Back in my title, the past summer is such a horrible one for me. I don’t know if I’m going to pursue or not, if I will give up or get through. Too many heartaches, too many problems — financially, physically, emotionally, and psychologically. I don’t know what to do with this life. All I know is that I need to go on for a lot of people around me are expecting to be of help with their lives, most especially my own family na talagang ang daming disappointments and downfolds nang pinagdaraanan which I must break for them to realize a better life. Ang hirap dahil hindi lang ang mismong pamilya ko ang nag-eexpect sa’kin. Ang dami kong dapat gawin maituwid lang ang mga pagkukulang at pagkakamali ng mga nauna at nakakatanda sa akin. Don’t bother with my extra-curricular activities in several school organizations na nakakapagpasaya sa akin because through those things, I can set myself available everytime when someone needs help. I love to help, I fix others lives, but never can I fix mine.

Sad fact but I must accept. I never thought just for myself. I never felt any grudge for whoever put me down. Hindi rin ako nakaramadam ng galit sa mga hindi mabilang na mga taong natulungan ng aking magulang na ngayon sa panahong kailangan namin sila ay sila pa itong tumatalikod o nagpapabagsak sa amin. Alam ko ang mga hinanakit, ang bawat kurot ng buhay sa aking pamilya, ngunit alam ko ring patuloy ang pag-asa nila. Marahil ay ako na nga ang sagot pero alam kong mahirap.

To end this, it’s funny na despite of this tear-jerking life I have, I am still a bubbly person who used to bring a smile for somebody else. I know that I am being loved. I am blessed despite all my imperfections. I am blessed with so many friends whom I can call true friends. I have a lot of acquaintances who show their care to me. I am given with someone I can call mine. I am given an optimistic point of view which I can use to overcome all those trials. I love give whatever I can give just to please even a single heart.

Mahirap maging mayaman, ngunit lalo’t higit na mahirap ang maging mahirap. Everybody is driven by money, except our faith, and our own heart. It is true that the darkest part of the night is before dawn. However, a dawn wouldn’t comw without the night. How much land does a man need? …just enough to burry himself…

To all those who were able to read this,

It is my loving and friendly way to say… I love you…